I have two parts to my response here. I see many parallels in my own life that with some 20 years of schooling after kindergarten and not much work experience I went back for education credentials but threw it over because of all the political correctness crap associated with it even though I was using some of that while teaching reading in a desperately poor neighborhood in Baltimore. Then there was the three years of teaching English or rather tutoring in Romania while I danced with a performing group in Csikszerada. I don't know why but my tolerance level for everything rises enormously when I am out of this country. Then, on returning, as I have mentioned before, I took construction jobs as an "independent contractor" and had a Romanian crew of seven stone and brick masons who of course were mostly illegal. So driving my six speed four wheel drive Ram with a 10 ft. trailer and learning to back it up was at least a little similar to your OTR truck . When the construction industry wound down, I was going to go for the CDL but when I found out how to get the training for free it was a little too late.The second part of my response is to express admiration for your willingness to reveal yourself warts and all, to say," this is who I am, take it or leave it, I know who I am, I am OK and I stand by it." I call this integrity. It is impressive and necessary.Not perfect but good enough in an imperfect world in which we all have to live, and at the same time never letting despair and depression thwart your humanity and belief in the quest for justice and truth. SALUT!